Canada’s Corner

When I think about my time as a young precocious girl, I am often saddened due to the loneliness I endured. There were some generations that spent more time working than speaking. I often saw adults consumed with everything but their children under the guise that we were so responsible. Unfortunately, we were too responsible for our own good. We often buried ourselves in distractions that often lead us astray. Of course I am speaking from my own lived experience, so don’t mind me. I realize that if I wanted my parent’s attention, I had to get it by misbehaving because being good often got ignored due to other pressing issues. Its complicated!

When I look at my daughter, I am triggered sometimes because I recognize that she gets to bloom into herself if she steps into it. Canada gets to be the best version of herself right at this moment without realizing that my life doesn’t interfere with hers. She gets to make monumental mistakes as the love of her 4 parents (blended family) rally around her + pray that she steps into her own identity rather than the identity of others. Canada gets to fall + know that we’ll pretend we didn’t even see her because its easier to fall in the presence of loved one’s rather than the shadow of your peers. She gets to “be” + that is what we all desired + wanted as children.

As I watch Canada bloom in this season, I try to remain un-bothered as she pushes every envelope. I try to catch all the hints that she is changing + needing a bigger space to grow. Sometimes knowing when she is going through a season helps me to prepare for what’s to come. I now understand that I am only a facilitator, a mere guide to show her where the landmines are + step back when a lesson is inevitable. I trust Spirit + I trust that Canada will find her corner of the world + shine just as she was destined to do.