Consistency + Abundance = Love — Justikeandthetribe

There are times in life when all you know to do is surrender. Surrender to the process. the pain, the hurt + the uncertainty all in an effort to do something different while saving an entire generation. When I chose this life, this time I was sure that I wanted to live it “in love.” Not for the sake of companionship, but for the sake of growth, purpose + ease. I didn’t want to spend my life in a space of selfishness, although it was tempting. I wanted to grow. Despite sometimes being scared, I wanted to see if I was capable of being more than a liar, a cheater, a spoiled insecure black woman that needed someone to validate me. I wanted to see if I was capable of putting someone before my kids, my family + my career just for me to see the best in myself. Its entirely too complicated for this blog post.

I have seen many people abandon their ability to love freely for the infamous '“situation ship” that never fully materializes + when its all over you realize that you have lost your dignity, self-worth + idea of who you ever wanted to be. I have seen woman give so much of their body away that they become unrecognizable to themselves. I have seen women settle for less than they deserve because they just got tired of looking. Most importantly, I have watched women give up on love because they just didn’t feel worthy of it.

One thing I am sure of more than I am my purpose is my ability to love my wife. It is the thing that even when I wanted to be unsure about it, the Universe had my back + told me to stand firm in my convictions. Has it been easy? No! Have I questioned my ability to stay? Yes! Have I cried for nothing more than “I just want to do this right?” Hell Yes! All in all, I am convinced that love conquers all + when we try to be in love without experiencing the fullness of it, we cheat the process + ourselves. Love is growth + ease all at the same time. Besides if you didn’t have a story to tell about how you overcame, then how would you be able to convince others they could do the same.