Preparing For A New Season

At some point in life, you wake up + realize that everything you desire must be obtained on your own. This sentiment gathers me because I realize that so many people are holding on to things they should have already released. We make things difficult for fear of having to face ourselves. We much prefer to help others see themselves by gently turning the mirror towards the face of a reflection we haven’t recognized in ourselves yet. Its complicated! I wish people understood that the way to freedom is to turn inward. Perhaps if people had a choice to save their life or the life of another person they would unequivocally redeem someone else for fear of not being enough.

I have recognized that people struggle speaking their own truth for fear of not being able to fully digest it. I am sure that is why I have memorized my story to the point that I can recite in front of the same people that caused the pain. I understand that some people may never acknowledge the disturbance they have caused in your life for fear of the distraction that acknowledgement brings. People take freedom for granted because it is an insight that very few people are able to put in context. While being a black queer woman is one of my greatest joys, I comprehend the instinctual plot to always keep me + my people perpetually enslaved.

This picture is a mere reflection of a season of my life where I am considering all the things that allow me to be free. I am taking into account every conversation that tries to silence the deepest desire to be liberated from years of oppression + lack. I am making allowances for all the things that matter to me even when it doesn’t feel good to the ego’s of others. I am giving consideration to every person; yet I am keeping in mind that some people won’t be ready. As I live unabashedly unapologetic, I continue to own my story + make room for others to do the same.